Million Dollar Thought

I HAVE LOST MY DIRECTIONS IN LIFE. Whatever I'm doing now, I'm just doing it because it had become a daily routine and it's already a part of my life. As time goes by, the responsibility on my shoulder is getting heavier and heavier. I did not feel anything to be happy about even when I passed my examination. I just felt like it's a responsibility in me. I don't even have any comment about my course. I just know that I chose it and now it's my duty to complete it.


Since from young, I tend to talk a lot and tend to be complained as noisy. Coming to think of it, I really wonder why I have been acting like this for the past years. Maybe being noisy and socialising around is the only way to ease my loneliness in life. But being this way also gave bad impression to my friends. Mixing around with girls too much tend to make me a womanizer and being too close with guys tend to make me look gay. How I hope I am able to be like one of my friend, being able to socialise around and not be complained at all.


I remembered when I was in high school, I read a poem titled Road Not Taken. It somehow is happening to me right now. What will be my life now if I did not talk a lot and complained as noisy at all? What will happen to me if I tend to be more serious and less lame?


Well, actions worth more than thought. It's time for me to find out. I'm going to balance up my attitude and hopefully something better will take place and my life will change to the better.

Edit : Thought that is in my hearts for years is finally expressed. I feel so much relax now.