Blogging Grows People Up

i'm in a state of emo-ing at the moment. didn't expect myself to be blogging again since my last post is like yesterday. but i wouldn't want this feeling to fade away while blogging about this. it would lose the meaning of the post. i was reading pinkpau's blog as usual, and by reading from one sentence follow by another, it made my heart emptier and emptier.

reasons?

1. being in msia
since i was young, i always wanted to leave this corrupted country and spread my wings in foreign country. i knew that the cost was going to be high but that is the chance that i was willing to take. watching Forbes on E! made me envy of the foreign lifestyle. but when it was the time for me to choose between local and overseas, i chose to remain being here. maybe i wouldn't want to regret when i'm there(cost is too high for me to regret) reading this post make me realize that i never will have the opportunity - exploring city, backpacking, staying in hostel(i know that i can leave home and stay at Sunway hostel, but it isn't the same), blindly trying to fit in the foreign lifestyle for the first few weeks or even months as a TEEN. FYI, pinkpau was blogging about the things she take for granted.

2. sister
she was always annoyed when i asked for explanation. i asked for it basically almost everywhere - movie, reading blogs and even article. being with her, the feeling was just indescribable. i can still remember the incident where i fought with her on the exact same day she's leaving. as if it just happened yesterday(can't believe how time flies and she's coming back in less than 2 months time) reading pau's blog made me feel how pathetic my language and general knowledge is. i even need to refer to online dictionary by just reading her post. how i wish you were here by my side, letting me annoy you by the endless question of definition. do you allow me to annoy you for the rest of your life? do you still remember how aunt bee choo used to say that the relationship between siblings will fade as they grow older? it ain't going to happen :)


P/S : try reading with post with an emotional feelings. wait! you can't do that. you just finished reading it. okay. okay. try thinking back of the post with emotional feelings. haha! cheers!